tears.
i cannot stop crying. it's so depressing and pathetic to realise that you have no one to turn to when you really needed someone.
what is more disappointing is the realisation that e person you thought knew you all along doesnt seem know you at all. and the negativities just keep coming. just keep aiming themselves at you. and you have no idea what else to do to set things right, to bring things back to normal.
maybe it can never be again. it's so hurtful, to almost physically feel e slap when the snappish tone comes when you have no idea what happened.
i am so tired now, but i just cannot slp. my heart aches so badly.
sorry to make you just barely tolerate me. i know i am someone who is difficult to be patient with.
i am not trying and has never tried to act like a saint. i am just... sad.
or maybe you dont care anymore.
it so doesnt help when i really miss him...
